Be MY Everything

You know that song be my everything? It says God in my thinking, God in my working, God in my waking....his words are so powerful, yet I dont think that we grasp them completely. It says "be my everything" wow. Be my everything, I'm just trying to think, do I let God be MY EVERYTHING? That's a big statement, and as much as I want that to happen I just find myself still trying to have some control. I find that when I'm driving I'll space out or day dream about what I would love my future to be but not what HE wants it to be. And with school I now know that what I am doing is what he wants for me but I still don't allow him to fully take control. I want God to be in my laughing I want him to be my hurting, I want him to be my everything. So why can't I just let go?.....God why can't I just let go? Why is it so hard to give you the full control? "Christ I me, Christ in me, the hope of glory...." God you are what i want my life to amplify and Im sorry if I haven't been doing that. Lord just reading your word I want to just sit and soak it all up. I miss being so close to you, I miss that urge of wanting to get into a deeper relationship with you. God, thank you. Thank you for still being that friend, and father who no matter what you still give 110% of yourself when I sometimes only give you 50%. Thank you for movin through me, for putting people like Alison, who has mentored me through the stupid things I have done. For giving me Chelsea, that best friend who prays for me, who gives me scriptures to read when I'm struggling....thank you. Thank you for putting yourself and making yourself MY EVERYTHING